"Do not accept anything by mere tradition. Do not accept anything just because it accords with your scriptures. Do not accept anything merely because it agrees with your pre-conceived notions. But when you know for yourselves—these things are moral, these things are blameless, these things are praised by the wise, these things, when performed and undertaken, conduce to well-being and happiness—then do you live acting accordingly."(Buddha)This is probably the reason why I was not converted to Buddhism. While I am a freethinker, not a hardcore yet, i still succumb to the faith that my protestant parents instilled in and reared me. Fatal failures follow me anywhere; relationships, academics, careers, family and finances. When things start to appear well, then the ground beneath where I stand starts to cave in. Everything in chaos, i scurry for reasons. Grapple and struggle with the issues to find a perfect rationale behind these, only to be frustrated by my sunken ideology. Then my world totally crumbles before my eyes -I watch in helplessness.
What do I see out of the debris? Nothing. Not a sign of life. Not a sign of hope. Despair is painted everywhere. Ah! Nothing but confusions and pains.
Believe nothing until it can be scientifically and logically proven. Lo, I tried. And tried harder. But, nothing. Where does this lead me?
Betray what I stand and hold-on? Or simply look-up? Find answers elsewhere? Where?
there's a saying here at my place "Don't let yourself be too happy, because after the happiness you'll have terrible sadness". We are only human, we always make mistakes. Sometimes, we want to udnerstand the things why of all the people in the whole wide world such tragic situations has to fall upon us. Well, the answer would be, God won't let these things happen to us if we can't carry the burden. That's what our family, friends, and God is for. Problems, like people, come and go, its on our hands if we let these problem take over our lives or not. I'll always be your friend, so cry and cuss all you want, let it out. ^_^
ReplyDeletebefore, i sort of believed that our failures - or accomplishments for that matter - are caused by the deeds that we do. karma, in short. i still believe that in some ways, but i have completely outgrown that childlike thinking that i did not get just because i did not give.
ReplyDeletefailures have reasons - maybe we didnt try hard enough, maybe it wasnt meant, maybe... the reasons go on and on.
i have my own failures too, and i know that there are still a few of them coming my way. it is an inevitable part of the cycle. how would you celebrate your success if you did not feel the pain of failure?
when we fail, it doesnt end there. one thought that i make myself believe is that i just took the wrong way, but im headed to the right direction. you'll never know, something might turn out right. we may not be too sure - but it will be worth the try.
come on, the sun will still come out! cheer up! try not to be too serious... and life will be easy. smile more often. fall in love. laugh with friends. life is too short to be spent crying over a spilt milk.
too much text @.@ im sorry if your eyes bled... @.@
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ReplyDeletethanks.
somehow, i stopped believing and dunno where to get that reservoir of faith. i've lost mine --completely.
@erica
i know there is always hope. it's so damped right now.
whoah... filipino settings? hahaha! but komentaryo on top was spelled with 2 m's... ^.^
ReplyDelete"isarado ang window" rofl! that was hilarious! shouldnt that be "isarado ang bintana"?! hahaha!
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