I am not complaining here, lest you construe I am. I never wanted this.
I grew up in a strong family that values love and unity regardless of harsh circumstances. That love should be the main bonding agent for any healthy relationship. That love can help people to weather out any harsh realities in life and come out stronger –together. However, it did not work for me. The most difficult part is having my son caught in between. I am forced to see these realities in an entirely different way.
Providing for my son’s material welfare is easy. But providing for his emotional needs is another. He definitely needs his mom. The only consolation that I take from this, which is selfish actually, is he is with me, and come high waters –I will stick it out for him. Nah! Forgive me for this too personal confession. I had to assure myself that everything will be fine for both of us, especially for him.
I grew up in a strong family that values love and unity regardless of harsh circumstances. That love should be the main bonding agent for any healthy relationship. That love can help people to weather out any harsh realities in life and come out stronger –together. However, it did not work for me. The most difficult part is having my son caught in between. I am forced to see these realities in an entirely different way.
Providing for my son’s material welfare is easy. But providing for his emotional needs is another. He definitely needs his mom. The only consolation that I take from this, which is selfish actually, is he is with me, and come high waters –I will stick it out for him. Nah! Forgive me for this too personal confession. I had to assure myself that everything will be fine for both of us, especially for him.
all i can say is your son is very lucky to have a dad like you, just forget all your problems and enjoy, nobody is perfect right?
ReplyDeletethank you for the nice complement joan. am trying my best to be one.
ReplyDeleteI share exactly the same sentiment. My little girl is almost 7, and it's really hard to be both mother and father at the same time. There will always be that missing piece somewhere in between.
ReplyDeleteBut at least we have them with us, right? I think that's the most important part of it. =)
Right Kcee -that's the most important part, your child is with you. And I will not trade that with a thousand gorgeous ladies out there. ^____^
ReplyDeleteKidding, of course. That's a different story.
Now, I am so thankful I took the challenge of fatherhood, and as I learn along the way, I am hoping I will be able to raise into a man that any father could be proud of.
How's your little girl?
As they say, every man can be a father, but it takes someone special to be a dad. I'm sure you'll do a great job. =)
ReplyDeleteMy little girl has a lot of questions right now, and I'm afraid one of these days I won't be able to give her the right answers.
Guess I'll just have to take it one step at a time. I know I'll get through, eventually. :)
Oh, well am still learning.
ReplyDeleteYeah, I know. Am not yet prepared for that, too. Am sure you can manage to blurt out the truth, whatever the situation is. In time.
Yeah, I really hope so. =)
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